i'm Katelynn, seventeen and this is my personal blog.
Silent-temptati0ns and the password is katelynn
lol at my last post.
This week seemed like it took forever. I’m so tired. Tonight is my first Friday in like 4 months where i’m not doing anything. Basketball season is ova which means bored katelynn. This probably one the most pointless posts i have on here. Track starts on Monday. I’M SO EXCITED. This is what i have been waiting for since forever. That sinking feeling in your stomach when you’re getting down in your blocks. Then the next two seconds of waiting for the gun to go off seems like it takes years. Then boom. you’re off.
I guess i’ll just spend some quality time with myself this weekend. I’ve been trying soooooo hard with Derek, but it is literally going nowhere and it sucks. I mean, i think he doesn’t even like me so i’m probably just not going to talk to him.
I need to shopping.
I had a severe mental breakdown yesterday, but I won’t go into details.
OMGGG WHY CAN’T WE JUST BE OK? WHY DO YOU RESENT ME SO MUCH!?
I understand I hurt you. I know I cheated and I know I messed up. I’ve been huge mess without you. Hearing you voice literally just kills me inside. Whenever I see your cute smile I just wish that was because of me. I just want to be able to walk up to you and give you the biggest huge in the whole world. I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. WHAT DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND.
So i’ve been sick all week. I couldn’t even work out because it, and that makes me really upset. Track starts one week from tomorrow. I’m sooooo nervous. I just hope that my hips will be good to me and let me run.
Nothing really too interesting has happened to me lately. I went to the basketball game on friday. That was the last basketball game…of my whole highschool career. I’m so incredibly sad. That just means that high school is almost over. Ugh. This sounds weird but part if me really doesn’t want high school to end. I’m going to miss everything about it. But on the plus side i get to start a whole new life.
This week i just want to be calm. However i have two tests on tuesday, a project due wednesday and my housing contract due friday. LETS DO THIS
Today was just ugh. Fifth hour just became so Idk. My head became heavy and my hears just hurt. I’m so tired and exhausted. I have to do college stuff but I really don’t want to anything.
My mom has been pissing me off. I can’t wait to get away from her. I can’t even write right now. I’m so tired and I don’t care right now. I don’t even think I’m making sense. I am starting to feel annoyed. I want things with Derek to just move forward. I’m tired of these games.
Lastnight was Sadies.
Rachel curled my hair at 3, then after I did all mah nails. Went to Derek’s house for some pictures. His parents are really nice and i’m really happy things weren’t awkward. We drove to Megan’s house where pictures were with Javi, Sarah, Christian and Megan. It was actually a little awkward at some points; I think it was just because we didn’t have a lot of people. Dinner wasn’t so good either. Ultimate Grilled Cheese at the Waterstreet Brewery = no.
Lol there were only like 50 some people at the dance. A lot of seniors though. Derek and i took some pictures in the photobooth and then i danced like crazy. Just kidding, i didn’t dance like crazy but I got down. All in all I really had a good time.
Derek came over for awhile and we just sat and watched a movie. My mom fucking ruined it by sitting by us the last 20 minutes. When I dropped him off I thanked him for coming with me. All i wanted was a damn kiss, or just something. Nope, there was nothing. I really like this kid. He’s funny and tall and he understands me. But I guess i’m not enough for him because I really have no clue about what he thinks. It’s really bugging me.
It’s been a tiring week…oh wait, it’s still only Tuesday. But oh well. Things are going good I think. I just looked at my grades and i’m really liking what i’m seeing. I told myself I was going to work harder this semester and it’s starting to pay off.
I still have a lot to do.
yayayyayay. Derek and I finally hung out; so happy. We went to his house and it was a great time. Guess who has a date to sadies? ;) das rightt, i dooo bitchess. God I really hope things work out with him, I really really do.
Sidenote; My stomach is growing and i am not liking this. I hate the way my body looks. Hate it hate it hate it. The only plus side of me getting fat is that my boobs are growing too and they look nice.
I forgot to mention somethings earlier. I talked to Kyle saturday night. It was honestly so great. We actually talked and had an actually conversation. I was squealing like a little school girl.
This week took forever. I’m so happy tomorrow is Friday because that means i can sleep tomorrow night. yayyy.
Derek and I are hanging out tomorrow after the basketball game. I’m actually really excited; things have been going good with him. I think i’m going to ask him if he wants to go to sadies.
There was this guy at work that had a crush on me. I thought it was a cute gesture, so i gave him my number. He finally texted me on tuesday. He wants to hangout on saturday, but i don’t know how i feel about it. I’m not into forcing this or trying to make it work because he likes me. I hardly even know the kid,
Oh well, I’m super tired. I finally finished my financial aid, and now it’s time for scholarships and grants.
shit, i forgot my anatomy homework at school.